this is my home, the ocean.
where i feel safe and simultaneously afraid to drown
this juxtaposition i cannot comprehend
but this is where i bring my heart when it needs to mend
i surrender myself to its arms and the power it purveys
and i wish myself worthy to be an island amongst its waves
the perpetual pain that persists in my heart
is a beacon that calls me to its shores
and in this moment as i gaze upon the sea
i realize how deep, vast and beautiful i will never be

tonight the willow trees
shine green. maybe it's
the way they reflect in your
eyes. the first blossom
of spring will hopefully bring
more beautiful things and
not bear a beguiling disguise.
the sadness that flows
like a stream
someday will carry you
towards this infinite dream
where you will realize that
you are not alone
despite the obstacles unseen.