it's been so long since you caught my eye
since the blue was this hue in a february sky
the park is drizzled with the faintest of cries
and memories, oh, memories are lies

hug this curved road and emerge
white, gray, far away it's me sans the urge
terrible this faltering on the verge
of manifesting this dirge

the greyest skies
the cloudiness in your eyes
your hand extending out to mine, a surprise.
i'm not alive.
the loneliness does not subside.
everything i feel inside
drowned out by the shallow tide.
this subtle disguise of pain
will always reside.
my soul abides.
and i will eventually die.

every leaf dead.
green then gold then brown,
the color i love.
the color of your eyes
the color that i thought never lied.
the smell of fresh cut grass outside
i'm hurting from the inside
the spectrum of love
and its power.
you had your home
you've done what you came to do
i cannot wear this hate from you

quiet souls asleep in peace
take me with you
your cold breath stirs my senses
on this warm and lonely night
faint, red lights reflect off the muted street
and the moon my only companion
here, with me, the solace occupies my body
and the fear ascends into my eyes
you are nowhere to be found inside

i was born of the ocean

and you from the earth

nothing do we have in common

but our seemingly inconsequential births

as you rose from the ground,

i shed the murkiness of the place i had been

only to find myself in the darkness again...

there's no breath that we can share

or heartbeat to sustain us both

you take what you can from me

to continue your outward growth

i saw a statue once of an angel

being ripped away from the arms of

a beautiful woman.

my heart is now as hard and cold.

i feel nothing but an emptiness.

betrayal bore the mask of this angel

my soul desolate...in ruins.

the pressure of my heart beating in

my chest is too much to bear. how it

longs to shatter the stone.

the white delicacy of your skin is not

enough to keep me in. i'm torn.

i sway and the line falters and i

am stuck in between. between

the grasp of betrayal's hands. merciless

and free roaming through my mind.

i cannot bear the weight that this

has brought upon me. my flesh seems

to melt off my bones as my blood flows

redder. the nightmare ends.

01-09-2003

the end of a day comes so suddenly
although we know it's on its way
it's never welcome to stay...


what words
will you say
when given a chance
to say...

the raindrops of syllables
that trickle so delicately
from inside your mouth to the
top of the sky
they die
they die
and there's no birds
that can misinterpret them first
or memory that can satisfy the thirst
for a touch
for a look in an eye
that says i am here tonight
so let's just say goodbye.