the blue sky
acts as a backdrop.
the sun is burning today.
i falter
as i reach out,
out to the edge,
and i tumble away.
and i flutter so slowly.
and you watch me.
and hope that i find my way.
but the way it is long,
and i never knew the size of the sky.
and i hope that my sight
does not evade your eye.

the ground is warm.
and your hands,
as they touch me,
they make me feel alive.

it's everywhere i'm looking, the only thing i see
the walls of love collapsing and falling down on me
i cannot take the pressure, it's coming down on me
just like water, it's coming down on me

i know i'm always calling and you can't count on me
nothing more to offer, nothing more in me
i took it all for granted, you took it all from me
just like we wanted, the way it had to be

my body's just a vessel and you can drift in me
get lost in all the madness, end up finding me
not what you expected, not that i was me
just like water, you drowned inside of me

the sun today hangs low

afraid to get too close

knowing the danger he will impose

destroying what he only wants to hold

makes him want to run

to the sky above

but there's nowhere left to go

she's down below

a flower in a sea

she's reaching up to be

warm inside his arms

he can't control the flames

disparate they remain

you move me

in the darkness to you.

outside, so fragile, like paper

you show yourself to me

one secret at a time

until they all die

and then you hide

in your perfect symmetry

floating like a mystery

deep in the darkest

place inside of me.

a white, incandescent

beautiful sight.

a radiating light.

admiring the simplicity i see.

a picture reveals

the danger underneath.

you cannot survive.

my eyes too frail a sheath.

a breath dissolving you like teeth.

in time you will shed this duplicity

and reveal yourself to me.

reveal yourself to me.

time will underestimate me

but i will die for this

unearthly awakening

desperate sun
the sky is gone
i'm sorry to say
your time is done
you are not as bright
as you once were
you are not as beautiful
as you were once to her
she's turned cold and
has no space
for nightmares about home
take your heated,
charred black soul
and leave her alone.
just leave her alone.
if you had any hint
of light remaining
know that her heart
is never feigning
you've done enough
to bring her down
to burn off all her love
realize you never
brought her
the sort of days
she was dreaming of.

this is my home, the ocean.
where i feel safe and simultaneously afraid to drown
this juxtaposition i cannot comprehend
but this is where i bring my heart when it needs to mend
i surrender myself to its arms and the power it purveys
and i wish myself worthy to be an island amongst its waves
the perpetual pain that persists in my heart
is a beacon that calls me to its shores
and in this moment as i gaze upon the sea
i realize how deep, vast and beautiful i will never be

tonight the willow trees
shine green. maybe it's
the way they reflect in your
eyes. the first blossom
of spring will hopefully bring
more beautiful things and
not bear a beguiling disguise.
the sadness that flows
like a stream
someday will carry you
towards this infinite dream
where you will realize that
you are not alone
despite the obstacles unseen.