you move me

in the darkness to you.

outside, so fragile, like paper

you show yourself to me

one secret at a time

until they all die

and then you hide

in your perfect symmetry

floating like a mystery

deep in the darkest

place inside of me.

a white, incandescent

beautiful sight.

a radiating light.

admiring the simplicity i see.

a picture reveals

the danger underneath.

you cannot survive.

my eyes too frail a sheath.

a breath dissolving you like teeth.

in time you will shed this duplicity

and reveal yourself to me.

reveal yourself to me.

time will underestimate me

but i will die for this

unearthly awakening

desperate sun
the sky is gone
i'm sorry to say
your time is done
you are not as bright
as you once were
you are not as beautiful
as you were once to her
she's turned cold and
has no space
for nightmares about home
take your heated,
charred black soul
and leave her alone.
just leave her alone.
if you had any hint
of light remaining
know that her heart
is never feigning
you've done enough
to bring her down
to burn off all her love
realize you never
brought her
the sort of days
she was dreaming of.

this is my home, the ocean.
where i feel safe and simultaneously afraid to drown
this juxtaposition i cannot comprehend
but this is where i bring my heart when it needs to mend
i surrender myself to its arms and the power it purveys
and i wish myself worthy to be an island amongst its waves
the perpetual pain that persists in my heart
is a beacon that calls me to its shores
and in this moment as i gaze upon the sea
i realize how deep, vast and beautiful i will never be

tonight the willow trees
shine green. maybe it's
the way they reflect in your
eyes. the first blossom
of spring will hopefully bring
more beautiful things and
not bear a beguiling disguise.
the sadness that flows
like a stream
someday will carry you
towards this infinite dream
where you will realize that
you are not alone
despite the obstacles unseen.

it's been so long since you caught my eye
since the blue was this hue in a february sky
the park is drizzled with the faintest of cries
and memories, oh, memories are lies

hug this curved road and emerge
white, gray, far away it's me sans the urge
terrible this faltering on the verge
of manifesting this dirge

the greyest skies
the cloudiness in your eyes
your hand extending out to mine, a surprise.
i'm not alive.
the loneliness does not subside.
everything i feel inside
drowned out by the shallow tide.
this subtle disguise of pain
will always reside.
my soul abides.
and i will eventually die.

every leaf dead.
green then gold then brown,
the color i love.
the color of your eyes
the color that i thought never lied.
the smell of fresh cut grass outside
i'm hurting from the inside
the spectrum of love
and its power.
you had your home
you've done what you came to do
i cannot wear this hate from you